Kelly’s Thoughts

Since I don’t actually have an internship, my teacher has allowed me to “intern” at my job. My boss is trying to figure out what he can have me do that’s above my role as a lot attendant. Plus I’ll be given more hours which is good. One thing he did advise me to do is to take more initiative at work. This is because he noticed that basic tasks were always written down for me to do. I did not know every single day they wanted me to clean the office, so DUH when it was written down I’d do it but dayum. Now that they don’t write it down, the office isn’t as clean as they like it to be. This is because I’m not there majority of the time so other people have to clean, but they don’t do as great of a job. Cleaning runs in my blood LOL. 

My job is very chill and when I say chill, I mean CHILL. I’m glad this was my first job! The interview process was out of the ordinary. Most funniest and most random interview ever. They literally had me take a multiplication quiz (WHICH WAS TIMED) and yes, like usual I did not finish on time.The whole interview was a prank on me because I knew I already got the job.  I literally told them I suck at math aha. I didn’t pass the quiz because I didn’t finish but I still got the job. Great thing about it is that they do not accept cash, only credit or debit! Honestly if they did accept cash I would quit, no joke. Math does not run in my blood. I mostly deal with rich middle aged or old people and honestly half of them are so smart but so dumb. I also deal with people who don’t work around the area and they are the people who irritate me the most. How do you not bring money to a GARAGE you know you are supposed to pay? Please explain. Like really?? And they expect me to let them out and I don’t. They wait there until magically they do have money or they just take my advice and get a money order from the postal office. If they really irritate me, I let them leave. Well not let them leave on the spot because I have to do a whole process before they can leave. Anyways, thank you for coming to my ted talk about work.

Welp, a sister still hasn’t found an internship. I have been looking but with no luck. I appreciate my teacher for helping me find one in a difficult time for me. I hope the universe hears me out and brings me an internship that I know I will enjoy. THE LAW OF ATTRACTION IS REAL! Speak it into existence! 

Juanita came to visit me yesterday and I started thinking really hard about life. Juanita’s presence calms me down and knows how to get to my mind. So then I started thinking about, what if I did end up finding the perfect intership? Teaches the art of acting, allows me to engage, connects me with people, helps me discover myself in a more creative way; but also helps me be more open when I have to get out of my comfort zone. That would be so cool! I mean I’m pretty sure every place that teaches acting does that, but I want to experinece it on a deeper level, with a teacher who is able to challenge me to really do it. I wish I had gone to OSA, Oakland School of Arts. WOW that would have been a real Victorious (the show) moment.

I’m going to keep searching until I find something! I have to graduate because I don’t want to graduate during the summer. I already have my mini speech prepared since freshman year AND I already have my cap decorated. I will be very dissapointed if it doesn’t happen. I can’t wait untl the day comes! I’m super excited to see two specific people that day and I REALLY hope they can make it. I’m honeslty going to be very sad if they don’t show up but will understand if they can’t. I can promise you I will not cry because I know my makeup is going to be expensive.

Today’s topic is about my all time favorite series Twilight. First of all, I don’t care what anyone thinks, Twilight is such a bad movie but in an amazing way. I mean it’s not bad but I think some parts could have been better. I have no life so I’ve seen the series a little too many times, however, I found a new and better way to watch the movies. If my teachers could let me write a paper on it, it would be done the same day it was given. 

I had this idea of taking, Juanita, and we would watch the series together but starting from the very first one. Let me tell you, it was like seeing it the first time all over again. From there I had the idea to make a new twitter account and live tweet. In my opinion my tweets are GOLD. I have no followers, it’s my secret account but I do follow the famous Twilight account. I look back and my opinons on this movie are VERY strong. I literally analyze every single scene and especially the actors. When I say nobody, I mean nobody could have done a better job at being Bella Swan than Kristen Stewart. Don’t even get me started with Edward Cullen, Robert Pattinson bodied that character too hard. Even though he is a bit creepy, his intentions were always with love; well mostly towards Bella. 

Now the soundtrack to the entire series was ahead of its time. The baseball scene went too crazy with the song! Bella’s Lulluby was ICONIC. My favorite song from the entire soundtrack is Roslyn by Bon Iver & St. Vincent. The way this song hits my soul is on another level. It’s now a happy and sad song for me. I love to listen to it when I’m driving long distance. There was a point in time where this song was played on repeat 72 times because a sister was going through it unfortunately. I will continue this on my next dream blog. Tahnk you for coming to my Twlight rant. 

At this point, I don’t have an internship because they only allow Cal students from the one I applied for. If I would have gotten the internship at C.R.E.A.T.E, I would have imagined my first impression would have been a good one. I think I would have liked their environment because they seem like great people to be around with. 

 I was emailing with one of the members, her name is Olivia; she tried helping me get into her program but her faculty advisor only allows Cal students. She was kind enough to try and it was very generous of her to email me back with other options that allow high schoolers to intern at. There’s a good chance we might meet up, that way she can help me find a good internship that involves what I am looking for. They are partnered with other organizations that have similar goals as them. I hope we are able to meet because her guidance will help me out a lot. 

If I was allowed in, I think my work styles would have been compatible with theirs because I would have been as dedicated like them to teach a class. I could have learned how to stay patient because they do work with kids. Also, how to teach a class full of adults who are interested in theater or visual arts. It would have been fun and interesting to see how I would teach adults. That’s a crazy concept for me to think about because most of the teaching in my life comes from adults, I would have enjoyed it though. Hoping I am able to find something as similar as C.R.E.A.T.E in an internship, if not then goodbye walking that stage in June. Pray for me…

Looking for performing arts internships is a bit harder than I thought. Majority are looking for skilled experienced college students and aren’t really seeking high schoolers. Searching for a place that has no experience needed or even take in high schoolers is a bit disappointing, however, I’m not giving up until I find an internship that has everything I am looking for.

If I were to find the perfect internship for myself, I would look most forward to starting something new and exploring who I am through different ways. Being able to explore yourself artistically is important to me because this will determine my future. The future can be intimidating because you have no clue what it’s going to be like. But this will help me reassure myself that I am not choosing the wrong career path. Making sure it is something that I truly want to do. My concerns about starting an internship is coming to the realization that, what if this is something I don’t truly want to pursue. Then what? I personally feel like there’s nothing else in this world that I am good at. I am not a math person and nor am I a school person in general. Arts is where I know I am comfortable and confident in, I don’t want to regret anything in the long run. If I do end up finding the perfect internship, I hope to enjoy it and meet different people to connect with. I hope the skills and lessons I learn will be useful to use in the future and not just sit in the back of my brain forever. Internships are important because they give you a taste of what your future can be like.

“So tell my about yourself” is possibly the most nerve wracking question in the world. Everything you know about yourself gets forgotten within seconds and all you can think of is “Uhh where to start?”. Thankfully there are kind people in this world who create personality test to really get a sense of what makes you, you. It’s so accurate it’s scary!

My name is Kelly Castro, and I am a high school senior. According to 16Personalities I am a campaigner who is the life of the party, independent, compassionate, charming, and energetic. No lies detected there! I would say my strongest assets are my social skills and being able to adapt to any social environment. I also have great teamwork skills and leadership skills. My strengths are my weaknesses because with great social skills I get distracted. Being able to adapt to different social environments, I tend to let myself be myself a little too quick. It’s not a terrible thing but sometimes I would like to keep myself a mystery before I get comfortable around others. Its something about that “so who are you?” question that gets me excited to let them know I am.

I’ve always been a huge dreamer ever since I was little but I mean who hasn’t. Everyone has always dreamt of being something big in this world but many fail to really go through with it, however I actually plan to go through with it. I’ve always been interested in performing arts but never really told anyone because I didn’t want be judged for it. Now I am not as you can tell. Those who doubt are secret haters. It wasn’t until 2012 (my middle school days) when I realized that it is something I really want to pursue. I would like to thank SNL for helping me realize that acting is my calling. The problem is I’ve never had resources to actually start due with not being able to afford acting classes or even be accessible in the schools I’ve been to. This is why I am looking for possible internships I can be apart of to start my journey of becoming an actress. Nonetheless, before I begin that process I have to get myself an internship that allows me to grow and expand my strengths and better my weaknesses. It would be amazing to start off an internship in performing arts, but they are so limited around Oakland. Whatever comes to me first will happen for a reason and I will be grateful for the opportunity. Always be grateful for the opportunities you receive because sometimes they are blessings sent to open up a path to success.